On Saturday we had a family party at my Aunt's place in the country in honour of Canada Day (July 1st). In Canada we get the day off, but it's a Wednesday, so in order to properly whoop it up we celebrated early. It was a pretty good time.
My cousin was there with her 1 month old baby girl... my Mom held the baby for about an hour, smiling and cooing at the baby. And, slowly breaking my heart. You see I got my period that morning which was the final confirmation that the recent IUIs had not worked.
I felt alone and isolated at that party. Oh and it was great when my Aunt forced me to hold the baby. She was adorable and smelled great. It was bittersweet.
I wish I could find the old me.
hey girl i have a feeling we are feeling very much the same way today....
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Ouch on all accounts. I'm sorry for what should have been an enjoyable day.
ReplyDeleteI fear if anyone put a baby in my arms these days that I would just run away with him/her.
Hugs. Hugs. Hugs. I wish it were easier.
I miss the old me too...
Grr. Sounds really shitty. I'm sure that's how I'll be in September, when my niece arrives. Sorry it was so rough.
ReplyDeleteIt is so hard I know. I was at a party & holding my 9 mon old nephew. Gosh...it is hard ..I looked at how beautiful he was & think I wonder what a child of mine would look like.
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Oh, I'm so sorry. What a rough day, from start to end. {{{hugs}}}
ReplyDeleteI hear ya. I know how hard it is, but it will happen. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteI so very much understand you my friend. I also would like to find my old self...let's try and be positive that our turn will come soon. Fran
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry about the IUI not working. I understand how heartbreaking it is when it fails. I've been kinda MIA lately. I'm very sad and wondering where the old me is too.
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