Thursday, January 15, 2009
I Just Can't Help Myself
I post on a message board pretty regularly and have recently discovered that I know one of the women in “real” life. She’s talking about TTC and she’s on her first month of actually trying. I find that I am totally addicted to reading her posts to find out where she is in her cycle, what’s happening etc. She is much younger than me; I’m talking 10 to 12 years younger. So of course she’s going to get pregnant right away. It’s kind of like watching a car wreck. I just can’t stop myself from looking.
To add to this, my cycle’s all weird. It looked like my body geared up to O on CD12. I had tons of EWCM, a big drop in temperature, and then a temp rise of .3 degrees – so I’m thinking here we go. Well, I still have some EWCM, my cervix is still high, soft and open, and my temps have flat lined. No crosshairs on FF – looks like my body is still trying to O on CD 15. I have those handy-dandy progesterone suppositories just sitting there taunting me, waiting for me to O. I have no idea what’s going on with my body. Another little mindfuck from the fertility gods.
To add to this, my cycle’s all weird. It looked like my body geared up to O on CD12. I had tons of EWCM, a big drop in temperature, and then a temp rise of .3 degrees – so I’m thinking here we go. Well, I still have some EWCM, my cervix is still high, soft and open, and my temps have flat lined. No crosshairs on FF – looks like my body is still trying to O on CD 15. I have those handy-dandy progesterone suppositories just sitting there taunting me, waiting for me to O. I have no idea what’s going on with my body. Another little mindfuck from the fertility gods.
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How weird to know her IRL and see the inner workings of her thoughts on all this. I always wonder if anyone I know has "found" me. What a mess they must think I am. LOL.
Oh, and yes she will be pregnant in no time at all, I'm sure.
Hugs on the messed up cycle. I have no advice. I quit charting awhile ago and it was the most liberating thing I have done. (-;
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