2009 – The Year in Review

I have to admit I’m happy to see this year almost over. It hasn’t been a stellar year. It marked my highest FSH reading to date – 19.9, a couple failed IUIs, a failed IVF, a change of clinics (the grass wasn’t any greener), month after month of monitored natural cycles and finally an acceptance of moving on to donor eggs. I have made lots of bloggy friends, found lots of love and support here in the inter world. I hope I have given back as much as I have received.

Despite the fertility stuff, which tends to takeover everything and which is the main focus of this blog, in other areas life has been pretty good. TOUCH WOOD. H. has been gainfully employed and has flourished in his new job that he started in December 2008 (oops that should be since November 2008 - sorry H!). He even got a raise recently. We rented a cottage in July that was wonderful. I am luckily in a role where I have a little freedom, make ok money and have about 5 weeks of vacation a year. Our friends and families are happy and healthy. We did lose Y this year, in her 89th year. So, our year was not completely tragedy free. There were ups and downs throughout the year, but in the end I think they pretty much balance out. I feel like H. and I have taken another step towards each other and to understanding each other. Even after almost 10 years together we are still negotiating our space and learning about each other. It awes me that I have found someone who is so devoted to me. Not sure how I got so lucky.

I’m sure 2010 will again be a series of ups & downs, lows & highs, but I am also sure it’s the year I will be pregnant and we’ll be on our way to fulfilling our family.

The New Year represents a clean slate to me, can’t wait to see what I write all over it.

ETA: I wrote this post last week. I forgot that I had written it. H's uncle died on Christmas day, we spent the last couple of days driving to and from Ottawa for the funeral. (about a 4 to 5 hour drive each way). ON a TTC note, this year did not end the way I wanted it to... BFN, I was really hoping for my own little Christmas miracle. I've just been away from the blogs, not posting, not commenting. I'm sorry, I just had to pull back a little bit. For those of you about to POAS I salute you.