Monday, February 28, 2011

Checking in

So my little g is 9 weeks old and I think I am still falling inlove with her a little more everyday. Sometimes I just stare at her and it feels like I need to pinch myself to make sure this is all real. She has been sleeping through the night now for a couple of weeks she goes to bed around 9 and gets up around 6. At night I give her a bottle and then I sing her a few songs, then I rock her to sleep in my arms. Sometimes it takes a couple of tries to get her down for the night. Then in the morning she has another bottle and then comes inthe bed with us. H gets a little snuggle time in with her before he goes to work and then G and I sleep for a couple more hours. When she wakes up she is all smiles for me. It melts my heart every time. It is not all easy but I love being a Mom.

Even though I know that we needed to take this particular path to get to this spot, I wish we had gone to DE earlier. I am turning 40 in a month and I guess I am worried about being an old Mom. I keep doing the math, you know, when she is 10 I'll be 50 etc. That is the only thing that will sometimes creep in and take the shine off of things for a minute.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Aunt Flo Has Come to Town

At 8 weeks 4 days post partum my period has come back. I had a feeling that it was on its way because I had noticed soe signs of ovulation a while ago. I am going to track my af on fertility friend again, just to see how regular it is, if and when I am ovulating etc.

H and I had a chat yesterday about going back to Brno. I have been doing some research on when it is safe to try again after having a csection. The consensus is that 18 months is the general wait time. From what i can find it is really safe at one year out, but we are going to err on the side of safety for me. Which means that instead of going back in November 2011' we will look at going back in August of 2012. It gives us more time with Little G and also if it works there will be nice spacng between them.

This also means we can take a vacation later this year...a much anticipated vacation..we are gong tk Hawaii for around two weeks. H's Dad had offered to give us some money towards the trip and we have decided to take him up on itl In fact he will be coming with us. We are just starting the planning process, but it looks like we will be spending time on Oahu and Maui. It will be an adventure travelling with an 11 month old. We are going to look at splitting up the flights so it is not too much for her. e.g., flying from here to Vancouver and spending the night and then flying from Vancouver to Honolulu the following day. Squee! I love planning for this kind of thing.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Eight Weeks

Tomorrow Little G will be 8 weeks old. Time surely is flying by. I am head over heels in love and seem to fall deeper by the hour. We are thinking about going back to Brno in November. Actually, we are past thinking and will be going back then. Here is the thing, the optimisitc infertile in me keeps going over the "what if" scenario of us getting a miraculous natural pregnancy. Stranger things have happened, but lets face it, I will be 40 in April and my eggs were pretty crap at 35 so what makes me think that now things will be different. Oh, that is because people (my drs) keep sayng stuff lIke pregnancy can kick start your body. I had my post op appt on Monday and the dr said that I should take birth control. I laughed and sId that I've got my own built in birth control and that is when he hit me with the you never know statement.

So there it sits in my brain that has far too much time to foucs on things. And, if you have read my blog overmthe years you know that I am really good at thinking and worrying. I go from thinking that it would be amazing to get pg on our own after all this time, but then I think about my age and get scared. I think about down syndrome or kther birth defects that could be caused by my crap eggs. Crazy eh? In reality the likelihood of me getting pg without inftervention is close to 0. So, I need to focus on November and another trip to Brno.

About little G, at a month old she weighed 9lbs 10 oz, I think she is well over 10 lbs now. She is smiling on purpose now instead of just from gas which is pretty amazing. She is also starting to babble and also starting to recognize and play with toys although her hands are still mostly in fists. She has been out in her stroller for a couple of walks and also been in the car a lot going tonher grandparents or to the couple of showers that were held in her honour. She has to be one of the best dressed kids around. She is completely spoiled.
we'll have to do something about that if it continues. It is amazing how much she is loved by our friends and family. It feels like she was as much longed for and anticipated by the people who love us as she was by us. We are extremely lucky!

Here is a pic I took of her and used as a Valentine's Day card.

Monday, February 07, 2011

Just Popping In

Little G is now 6 weeks and 4 days old. She is getting more of a personality. She smiles more and has found her fists. So cute to see her happily munching on one of her fists! The big news is that she slept through the night last night. She has been a really good sleeper from the start and lately she has been sleeping at night for between 4 and 6 hours then waking for a bottle and then going back to sleep for another 3 or 4 hours. Last night she went down at around 10pm and when I woke up at 4:45am I realized she wasn't up yet I was able to keep myself from running in her room and checking if she was still breathing. She woke up on her own at around 5:30. 7.5 hours is not bad!

We had a family shower yesterday afternoon and I think because she didn't sleep as much during the day it made it easier for her to sleep thrpugh the night. The shower was a lot of fun and she was completely spoiled!

I have to say it still feels surreal to be having showers and caring for a baby. I cannot believe how lucky we are to have been successful after so many failures. We are talking about going back to Brno at the end of this year and trying our luck again with a FET. I am a little reticent about jumping back into the fertilty clinic world, but it is what it is. If that is what we need to do to complete our family then I am in for whatever needs to be done.

On another note, my beloved Packers won the Super Bowl! Go Pack Go!