Thursday, October 28, 2010

30 Weeks

Now that's a milestone! 30 Weeks. Wow, we are in the home stretch here. With the help of my parents, my brother and his girlfriend, H and I have finished painting the nursery... I'll post pics when the furniture is in. My parents came over yesterday during the day and finished all of the trim and did the touching up. My Mom also cleaned my bathroom which really really needed it. I'm embarassed that she saw it in that condition, but I'm also thankful because it was really helpful.

This Saturday my folks are going to help us get the baby furniture and set it up. Then I'll be able to put the decorations in place and get a new rug and window coverings and the bedroom will be done. I feel like there is so much more to get done though. I have a list of things you need to buy to get ready for baby and we've only got about 20% of the things on the list. It makes me feel a little overwhelmed if I dwell on it too much. I just have to think about one thing at a time and hopefully all will be ok.

As for the pregnancy, the baby is really active these days wiggling around and sometimes it feels like she's trying to kick her way out. I don't think I've gained anything over my pre-pregnancy weight as of yet... I had lost 10lbs and I think I've gained them back. The next 10 weeks should show me piling the pounds on. I think at this point I'm supposed to be gaining .5lb to 1.5lbs per week which means by 40 weeks I should have gained between 5 and 15lbs. That's pretty good. I started out pretty big and I was really afraid about how much I'd end up gaining.

I am still feeling good and sleeping OK - although I am not sleeping soundly anymore. The fatigue during the day is pretty bad. And, I've been having some very strong cramping - yesteray was horrible. I'm not complaining, I'll take whatever comes my way in order to have a healhty baby at the end of this.

Speaking of which, I had my 2 hour Gestational Diabetes test yesterday after failing the one hour test by .1. I should have the results at my appointment next week (Nov 2), hopefully I don't hear from them before that because no news is good news. The test wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I had my blood taken 3 times in 2 hours and only have 1 small bruise so I'll consider that a success.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Starting the Nursery

A few weekends ago H. and I bought Little G's crib (that converts into a toddler bed and then eventually a double bed) and also a change table/dresser & hutch. We are picking up the furniture next weekend. So, this weekend we are painting the nursery. At first we were going to have white furniture and a robin's egg colour on the wall. Then we saw the furniture and fell in love with a mahogany set - so much for the white furniture. Then we couldn't find the right shade of robin's egg. H. happened to see a picture ripped from a magazine and hanging on the wall by the paint chips in our local paint shop. The picture was of a little girls room. The walls were a vibrant green colour - and we both just knew that would be the perfect colour for Little G's room.

So, we bought that paint, ceiling paint and paint for the trim and, along with my brother and his girlfriend, got started yesterday. My bro could only stay for a few hours so we didn't get as much done as we had expected. Today we finished the second coat and are now ready to start the trim and then touch up the mistakes we've made. I think I over-exerted myself today. My whole body is achy, but I can't help but smiling when I think of what we've been doing... getting ready for an actual baby to come into our home. I am still in a little disbelief over this. And, if I let myself think of all we haven't done I get very overwhelmed. So Much To Buy!

In case your interested... this is the crib:

This is the dresser/hutch:

Sorry about the weird size of the pics - just click on them if you're interested in seeing them. When I have pics of the finished room, I'll share them.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

I had another u/s and OB appointment yesterday. It was an exercise in patience as the person doing my u/s was an intern who had never used the machine before. The u/s took an hour to be performed, which made me 1/2 an hour late for my appointment. I should have been at the appointment at 2:45 and didn't actually see the doctor until 4:00pm. Sigh.

The u/s was good though, it showed that the placenta has moved and I no longer have placenta previa. Also, Little G has flipped and is now head down. Hopefully she stays that way. She is now measuring exactly where she should be from a growth standpoint and is weighing a smidge under 3lbs (1.346kg). She's in the 50th percentile for her stage. She was really active, practicing breathing, getting the hiccups, bouncing around etc. At one point she had her whole hand shoved in her mouth. We got a pretty good profile shot of her sucking her thumb.

Then it was off to the dr. to get my GD results. They took my blood pressure and weighed me. BP was normal, and I don't think I gained any weight - they didn't say anything to me about it. Then I got my GD results - I failed by 0.1, a pass is anything 7.8 and under, my result was 7.9. So, I have the pleasure of going back for the 2 hour test next week. I fast for 8 hours, get my blood taken, drink the sickly sweet drink and then after two hours I have my blood taken two more times. Blech. As a precaution I'm going to start following loosely the GD diet. Limit my sugars, increase my veggies etc. Even if it just makes me healthier, I'll take it.

I had asked my Dr. for a c-section date as I was really thinking that with the placenta previa and my family history that I wanted to go that route. So, he presented me with a c-section date of December 23rd. Christmas is my favourite time of year and I can't imagine spending it in the hospital - even if it means the birth of our first born. Also, since it doesn't seem to be medically necessary anymore, I thought a little more about what it is I want. I asked to be induced on a day that my doctor is on call. This way I will hopefully have a Dr. that knows me and my family history, that will be watchful of how things are going and will also be able to assess things alongside my family history. Someone I trust. I want to be able to discuss with him about my progress and decide with him if c-section is the best route or not. H. doesn't understand this option, he thinks I'm trying to control things and that I think my opinion means more than the dr.'s. I will admit there is a part of me that needs to feel in control and by knowing the date (tentatively Jan 1, 2011) I at least know when the process gets started. I just need to feel like the doctor I will be going through arguably the most important day of my life with is someone who knows me, and my medical history and will be on my side.

My Aunt almost died in child birth, my cousin's (her daughter's) life was in danger as she hemorrhaged so much blood and they had problems getting her uterus to contract. 4 out of my 5 aunts on my Mom's side had to have c-sections due to the birth canal not being large enough for vaginal delivery. My Mom delivered the placenta before she had given birth to me, which resulted in an emergency c-section where they didn't know if I would be alive. This all really scares me, I don't want to die giving birth and I don't want our baby to die.

Friday, October 15, 2010

An Interesting Question

Yesterday H. and I were sitting on the couch talking and I had just finished shoving my shirt up and scooching my pants down to show him my belly and where Little G is currently residing. He laughed and then looked at me and asked "So are you enjoying the experience of being pregnant?"

The answer is an unequivocal yes. The whole point of going the donor egg route for us was so that I would have the physical experience of carrying a baby. There would be a genetic link to H and a very real connection to be as well, but the act of carrying the baby was the goal.

This hasn't been an easy pregnancy. From the joy and fear of finding out we were expecting triplets, to the excruciating decision to reduce our TTTS twins, to the ongoing morning sickness, nausea and vomiting things have not been ideal. But, I am so incredibly glad we did this and I know without a doubt that we made the right decision.

Now that Little G is kicking and moving and flipping around and I can really feel her the pregnancy has become so real. At night, she flips around and ends up on the lower right side of my abdomen. I can feel the round hard shape of either her head or her bum. I'm not sure which, but the point is I can actually feel her inside of me... from the outside. Crazy!

So my answer is yes, I am enjoying the experience of being pregnant, warts and all.

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 30

A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Dear Sweet G:


That is all (and everything)

Sweet G.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

30 Day blogging challenge - Day 29

Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

I hope that I will be able to gain more confidence in my abilities and have faith that I will find a better job. I really can't stand where I work or what I do anymore. It is a chore. I feel stifled and unimportant and because of that and the lack of challenge I feel like I don't have any skills any more. I feel like I have nothing to offer at other companies. It's a horrible feeling to have... to feel trapped into what you're doing.

I hope with the completion of my degree and the year off of work for maternity leave that I will be able to hone my skills again and find something I really want to be doing, that gives me confidence and challenges me.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 28

What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

The first part of that question entered my mind a multitude of times over the 3 or so years of trying to get pregnant that H and I went through. It was usually followed by a wistful sigh and a day dream of holding my own baby, or me being heavily pregnant at Christmas time or of H. asleep on the couch with our baby lying sleeping on his chest. When I actually found out I was pregnant, I shook like a leaf and cried deep heaving sobs of relief and joy. Now that I'm well over halfway through the pregnancy I finally believe that we will have a baby girl in our arms in the near future and I feel incredbily lucky. There's so much love and joy already.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Glucose Test

Well I had my glucose test this morning and will probably have the results next week when I go back for my ultrasound. The drink was kind of gross but not as sweet as I thought it was going to be. It also tasted gross because I had brushed my teeth pretty close to having to go for the test so that was icky. I almost passed out because of the sugar rush - got lightheaded and my fingers were all tingly. Luckily I did not pass out.

Then I met with my OB, I like him more each time I see him. I talked to him a lot about my family history and my fear of giving birth vaginally. My Mom is one of 11 children of which there are 6 girls. All of them except 1 (I think) have had to have c-sections. The birth canal is too small for the baby and they end up having emergency csections. My Mom delivered the placenta before me and I ended up being an emergency section. One Aunt hemorrhaged and had to have a hysterectomy at the age of 22 - her daughter just gave birth on the weekend. She ended up having an emergency c-section and she too hemorrhaged and is still in the hospital and is in need of a blood transfusion. My Dr. said that he'll make a note of it in my chart, but also that I can basically request a c-section if that's what I want. He said that I've been through so much to get pregnant and through so much with this pregnancy, that to have a successful outcome he would let me choose.

Then he checked me out and said that the baby is still breech so the whole previous conversation may just be a moot point anyway. We'll still be keeping an eye on the placenta to see if it moves or not. All signs point to a c-section in December.

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 27

What’s the best thing going for you right now?

This is an easy one, it's the fact that I'm pregnant with a healthy baby girl. This baby girl represents years of effort and tears and demoralization and determination. She represents a dream coming true. She is without a doubt, the best thing going for me right now.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

It's Thanksgiving today and I'm looking forward to a yummy dinner with my family tonight. I made an apple pie and a pumpkin pie for the occasion. I have never made either one before so it should be interesting. H. took some courses at a local college and learned how to make pastry so he made the pastry for me. The apple pie looks nice and flakey, and the pumpkin pie, well it looks like pumpkin pie so that's a start.

I have my one hour Gestational Diabetes test tomorrow morning, so I have to make sure I don't indulge too deeply in the sweets/starches today. For the uninitiated, the test starts with me drinking a sickly sweet orange drink, waiting an hour and then having my blood drawn to see my sugar levels. I hope I psss!

Anywho... Happy Gobble Gobble!

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 26

Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Another question I'm not going to answer.

Sunday, October 10, 2010

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 25

The reason you believe you're alive today.

I don't know. I'm not a deep thinker about these things and I don't really believe that people have a purpose to fulfill in their life. Just like I don't believe I have gone through infertility to be taught some sort of lesson. I do believe that living your best life and thinking about the legacy you leave when your life has been lived is important.

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 24

Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists)

I am opting not to respond to this one. I have enough projects in my life without having to add this!

Friday, October 08, 2010

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 23

Something you wish you had done in your life.

I wish I had applied to and gone to the university I really wanted to go to rather than chickening out because it was too far away from home. Don't get me wrong, the school I went to was great and I made some of my best friends there. It's just that my university experience would have been so much different because the school was so much smaller and every student lived on campus.

Thursday, October 07, 2010

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 22

Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

I wish I had waited to have sex until it was with someone I actually cared about. I don't have that great story about being in love etc etc. It was just with some random guy and done to get it over with rather than to have a special experience. I was 20 years old and sick of saying no. Not a great reason.

There aren't a lot of things I regret because I really believe that all of my experiences have made me the person I am today. And, I like the person I am today. But, this one thing, sigh, it would be have been nice to have waited a little longer.

Wednesday, October 06, 2010

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 21

(scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Assuming it's a bad accident and she's in the hospital as soon as I found out about the accident I would head to her side to make sure she's okay and see what I can do. If it's a fender bender, I'd call her to make sure she's okay.

It's kind of a weird question because I don't really have fights with my friends. We may have disagreements, but nothing that would stop me from talking to them.

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Starting to Nest

Little G has been kicking off and on today reminding that I should be writing more about this part of the journey. I want to be able to reflect back here later on and see the little (and not so little) ups and downs that happened over the 40 weeks it takes for her to arrive.

I'm still throwing up occasionally. Most recently was on Saturday night after a very full day of shopping and partying (an alcohol free event for me). I am getting more tired and have to pee a little more frequently - I'm actually waking up during the night to go now which I can't remember ever having to do on a regular basis. Little G is moving around more and her kicks/jabs/pokes are getting a little stronger and more frequent. She seems to have her nights and days backwards because she's really active around 8:30pm. She also responds to H's voice which is really cool. When he's talking to me she tends to kick a little more. She's already a daddy's girl. The latest symptom is joint pain from the way I'm sleeping; my left shoulder and right hip are bothering me today. I was actually limping a little bit this morning. I think this is more from the way I'm forced to sleep than from anything physically pregnancy related.

About Saturday... we went to a used baby clothes and equipment sale put on by the local parents of multiples group - which we had been going to join when I was pregnant with triplets. The first hour and a half is for members only, so we went a little later in the morning. We got a Disn'ey Swing, a bouncey seat, a feeding pillow, a winter insert for a carseat, a Winniethepooh snow suit, and about 10 outfits for $100. Then from there we went to a furniture warehouse store to check out cribs because my Mom had let me know that there were great deals on cribs etc there. Well we ended up buying a convertible crib (it goes from a crib to a toddler bed to a double bed), the conversion kit, a mattress, a dresser and a hutch. The sales woman was awesome and kept cutting deals for us; she even threw in a free changing pad. We just have to arrange a time to pick everything up. Then from there we went to a big mall at the north end of the city - it's a pretty swanky mall and it's pretty huge. We had lunch and then spend 3 hours shopping for stuff for H. I was exhausted! We went home and had a few hours before we had to go to a housewarming party. We got home from the party around 10:30 or 11pm and I was wiped out. Sunday it really hit me that I can't do the same things as I used to do, I need to pace myself a little better. I was still so tired on Sunday, that I fell asleep sitting upright on the couch.

I was ironing my clothes for work on Monday morning - the ironing board is in the room that will be the baby's room - and I happened to look over at the closet. I saw all of the little outfits hanging there and it hit me anew that we're going to have a baby. There will be a little baby in our home that we will be dressing in those clothes.

It reminded me again of just how incredibly lucky we are. Lucky that the last cycle worked... lucky that medicine has come so far that it could give us this chance to be parents. I am in awe of what is happening in my body and I really do love it despite the tiredness and vomiting and aches and pains.

One last thing... on Thursday I will officially enter my third trimester!

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 20

Your views on drugs and alcohol.

I don't really have specific views on drugs and alcohol. It's a shame they are addictive for some people. I think pot has very therapeutic qualities and should be made legal.

Monday, October 04, 2010

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 19

What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Both topics can make me incredibly frustrated at times because people's views/belief systems can be so polarizing. I am not sure how much I want to put out there in terms of my viewpoints. Suffice it to say I am not very religious and I lean left.

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 18

Your views on gay marriage.

For it.

Saturday, October 02, 2010

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 17

A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

I do a lot of reading on various topics and I know that some of those books have changed my view on things, but I can't think of any of them off the top of my head.

I reserve the right to revisit this post.

Friday, October 01, 2010

30 Day Blogging Challenge - Day 16

Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Through trying to get pregnant and being pregnant I have realized I can live without caffeine. I stopped drinking coffee leading up to our DEIVF cycle and from there haven't looked back. I fell off the wagon in Prague a few times, but the coffee there was too yummy to pass up. Since being pregnant I don't drink pop with caffeine and don't drink regular coffee or tea. I have discovered I like decaf tea a lot, so that helps. I was a regular coffee drinker, I'd have 1 or 2 large coffees every day until I started getting panic attacks and the attacks were worsened with caffeine.

I thought I'd have a much tougher time giving it up than I have. Now alcohol on the other hand is a different story. Not that I've allowed myself anything while being pregnant, but I have had the worst craving for sangria for most of this pregnancy, especially during the really hot summer months.