Monday, November 10, 2008


BFN. My LP was 14 beautiful days, I had a lovely 27 day cycle. Almost text book for an ovulatory cycle. Our DTD timing was impeccable. I had a dream last Thursday night that I received a card in the mail that said "We were so sorry to hear about your first miscarriage." So, who knows, maybe subconsciously I knew it was a chemical. I don't say that lightly. I know my body, I was so sure that this was it. I was crampy, tender boobs, moody - things I am not normally during my LP. Until Saturday morning - my temp was down - but, I just didn't feel it anymore. Got AF on Sunday morning at 6:30 - full flow - extremely heavy. Went through a Super tampon in 3 hours.

Anyway, it made me want to start the IUI process right away. But we're not going to... our plan is to try on our own two more cycles, save money and try to get a little healthier. Then we'll do the IUI. H is working again so we can actually save money and pay off some of our debts. Thank God.

I felt so close this time. Oh and my co-worker's wife had their baby boy at midnight Saturday night. He's their first child. I'm incredibly happy for them, but there's a small piece of me that is so sad and broken.

BTW - Thank-you for your well wishes. I truly appreciated them.


Lost in Space said...

I'm sorry, hun. I hate when our cycles mess with our heads. Huge hugs.

Sounds like you have a great plan in place. Cycling during the holidays can be hectic so waiting a couple might make it less stressful. Hopefully you won't need the IUI anyway. (:

Hang in there. More hugs.

Echloe said...

Sorry it didn't work out this time.

It sounds like a good plan to get healthy and save some money while you can. You'll need it once baby oven comes along.