Friday, November 06, 2009

Coming to Terms

I have now signed us up for 4 different egg donor organizations. One that works locally and the other 3 are in South Africa. I think I am slowly making peace with the idea of moving on to donor eggs. I told one of my friends about it (even though H. and I had agreed not to tell anyone - i'm such an open book I can't not tell my friends) and she said something along the lines of how the odds are so much higher with donor eggs and that next year I will be pregnant. First, it was amazing to me that she knew anything about donor eggs and second she said all of the right things. It was a great conversation. On top of all that, she reminded me that it's ok to be hopeful. I felt the hope glow in my body.

Ever since then, I've had this chorus from a Stones' song in my head "You can't always get what you want...but if you try sometimes, you just might find you get what you need."

Things may not be exactly as I've always pictured them, or happened as easily as I had thought they would, but in the end we will get what we need.

On another note, we (a bunch of people from my office)went to a new Chinese buffet yesterday for lunch and of course we got fortune cookies at the end. Mine was "You have a potential urge and the ability for accomplishment" (we all read them out with "in bed" added to the end teehee) I think mine sounds promising


irrationalexuberance said...

I love your fortune! And it's great to see that you are increasingly at peace with your decision. That's awesome.

Kate said...

OK, your friend is awesome! None of the weird skepticism crap I'd get about anything (including what I got about IF treatments and IVF from my Mom), just a positive outlook and encouragement. Fantastic. And I'm sure it'll help to have someone else that you can bounce stuff off of as you go through the process.

Phoebe said...

It sounds like you are moving through the grieving process of letting go of your eggs. I admire you. I'm glad you have a supportive friend who gets it.

I always used "between the sheets" at the end of my fortunes!

Fran said...

It's great to hear you being hopeful again! And you should. Fortune cookies ... you gotta love them! And the song is just tremendous! Much love, Fran

Spacey said...

I am so happy to read that you feel hopeful again! Never let go of hope!
I have such a good feeling about this for you and I know that you will be a wonderful mom.
Your friend is awesome. Sounds like she said all the right things and is there for you.

Mad Hatter said...

Pregnant a year from now! What an awesome thought! :-) I'm so glad you have a plan you are excited about and that you have support...I agree with the Stones' song - we do get what we need eventually, and it isn't always what we think it will be, but it makes us happy (and somehow better)all the same!