Thursday, January 08, 2009

I got "that" call

I got the phone call that I’ve been dreading and expecting and looking forward to last night. It was my friend L. calling to tell me that she and her husband are expecting. The baby is due July 7/09. She wanted me to be the first of the group to know because all the girls are getting together tonight and she’s announcing it and she didn’t want me to be blindsided. Very thoughtful. Of course, I said all of the right things and expressed my excitement for her (not very well, I don’t think, but I tried). After I got off the phone, I called H. and cried. He told me it’s ok to cry and that it will be all the more special when we do get pregnant. I love him.

Today, I have absorbed the information. I am truly happy for her and her hubby. She’s had a really tough year. Her mother died suddenly of undiagnosed lung cancer a year to the day prior to when she found out she was pregnant. There’s a certain symmetry to that.

Of course, me being me, I did the math and realized that she got pregnant the same month that I had my first chemical. I would have been due July 20th. We would have been pregnant together. Another dagger in the heart.

But, I’m looking to the future, not looking back.

ETA: Thank-you to those of you who have left comments, for your support. It really does mean the world to me!

1 comment:

Lost in Space said...

These calls are never easy. I am so glad that she was sensitive enough to call you beforehand. This speaks volumes of her character. As happy as we are that our friends don't have to know the pain of IF, it is still hard to know how easy it can be for someone else. I am sorry you have the added reminder of your loss. Many hugs. I hope you are the next of your group of girls to be making this type of call.