Thursday, January 15, 2009

I Just Can't Help Myself

I post on a message board pretty regularly and have recently discovered that I know one of the women in “real” life. She’s talking about TTC and she’s on her first month of actually trying. I find that I am totally addicted to reading her posts to find out where she is in her cycle, what’s happening etc. She is much younger than me; I’m talking 10 to 12 years younger. So of course she’s going to get pregnant right away. It’s kind of like watching a car wreck. I just can’t stop myself from looking.

To add to this, my cycle’s all weird. It looked like my body geared up to O on CD12. I had tons of EWCM, a big drop in temperature, and then a temp rise of .3 degrees – so I’m thinking here we go. Well, I still have some EWCM, my cervix is still high, soft and open, and my temps have flat lined. No crosshairs on FF – looks like my body is still trying to O on CD 15. I have those handy-dandy progesterone suppositories just sitting there taunting me, waiting for me to O. I have no idea what’s going on with my body. Another little mindfuck from the fertility gods.

1 comment:

Lost in Space said...

How weird to know her IRL and see the inner workings of her thoughts on all this. I always wonder if anyone I know has "found" me. What a mess they must think I am. LOL.

Oh, and yes she will be pregnant in no time at all, I'm sure.

Hugs on the messed up cycle. I have no advice. I quit charting awhile ago and it was the most liberating thing I have done. (-;