Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Balance

I went to the psychologist today, I really like Dr. C. She's a good listener and is very practical and down to earth. It sounds like she's had quite a few donor conception patients and just run of the mill infertiles come through her doors. I didn't cry too much, just teared up a little at the beginning. I felt stupid for crying, but also thought that what I was talking about merited the tears. She gave me some good tools for handling the panic attacks and also gave me some homework to do on worrying. I am an official worry wart.

The biggest thing she said was that this whole busines of infertility and treatments is not good for our mental health. She said that quicker you can get in and get out of treatment the better (not that we have any choice in that really). She also said that she doesn't believe in all the rah rah-ing the clinics do and the keep a positive outlook viewpoint. She said that when things don't work out it adds to the crash that we have all experienced.

Also, she said it's ok to feel crazy. That just because you feel crazy in the moment does not mean that you are crazy. Just acknowledge it and keep moving. I'm going back next week. I have to say though, I don't think it will be a long term thing.

On another note, the results of my aunt's biopsy came back today. She has uterine cancer. She's 50 years old, the mother of 2 boys (18 & 13) and she's having an emergency hysterectomy sometime in the next week. They think that it's still in the very early stages and she may not even need radiation. Please keep her in your thoughts.

4 comments:

Lost in Space said...

So glad you liked Dr. C and had a good appointment with her. She does sound very no nonsense and I hope her tools are helpful for your panic attacks.

I just found out today I have a SIL in a very similar situation. Her surgery is on the 15th of this month... Hoping your aunt does well.

Mad Hatter said...

Oh, gosh, I'm so sorry to hear about your aunt. I hope they've caught it in time and I will definitely keep her in my thoughts.

I'm glad you like Dr. C. and her philosophy. She sounds like she has a lot of common sense!

How are you feeling about your new clinic? Have you had much communication with them so far? I hope that they give you everything you need to feel comfortable and relaxed - after everything you've been through, you deserve a really nice experience (as nice as all this business can possibly be, anyway!).

Lots of Love,
Maddy

La La said...

So glad you had a good experience with the doc...I've actually been thinking that I ought to go myself. Hmmm...

Anyhow, I am very sorry to hear about your aunt. I hope they caught it early enough that she won't need chemo. ((hugs))

Phoebe said...

Dr. C has some good advice. Easier said than done to get in and out of treatment quickly! In the meanwhile, we have to find ways to cope. I hope her suggestions help you.

I'm sorry to hear about your aunt, and I hope they are able to get all the cancer out.