Thursday, June 19, 2008

Open to the Possibility

How do you feel about affirmations? I always think of the Sat.urday Night Liv.e episode where Phil Hartman (I think) looks at himself in the mirror saying “I’m good enough, I’m smart enough and, gosh darn it, people like me.” If I have ever thought seriously about doing an affirmation, I have decided against it because just the idea of it leaves me a little weirded out. I feel stupid.

I know there is The Se.cret out there that promotes putting your good thoughts out into the world and they will come back to you. Seems easy enough, but the catch is that you also have to stop from putting the negative thoughts out there. The theory is that it doesn’t matter what you put out into the world that whatever it is you will draw back to you. For example, if you say that you don’t want to gain weight, that’s what you’ll do. I don’t know how much truth there is in it, but I do believe that there is a lot of power in our thoughts.

Two acupuncture sessions ago I decided (after reading about it on another blog) to start saying a mantra. Magically, after the first session I ovulated – a normal cycle! Woohoo. Today was the 3rd session in a row where I’ve said my mantra. Who knows if it will work, but I feel better when I’m doing it. I say to myself “Good, strong healthy ovaries make good strong healthy eggs”. I felt a little silly about it at first, but since I ovulated after starting I decide it can’t be that bad. Coincidence maybe, but I’m just superstitious enough not to change anything after I’ve seen some progress.

Well, today as my Dr. M was going over my FF chart reading the notes she decided that a mantra is not enough. Due to the consistently negative comments I’ve been making on my chart e.g., didn’t ovulate yet, may not happen this time, I need to have a daily affirmation. Crikey. She asked me if I had one that I wanted to say. I think I must have looked at her like she had a 2nd head because she quickly followed that with a suggestion of her own. Her first suggestion was to say to myself “I will get pregnant” every day. Um, hello, infertile lady over here… nothing like setting yourself up for disappointment! Then after some doubt from me and a little deliberation of her own she changed it to “I’m open to the possibility of getting pregnant”, which suited me just fine.

I am open to the possibility of getting pregnant.

On another note, today is a much better day than yesterday.


La La said...

I think that sounds like a great idea! Soon it will be "I will have a healthy baby" and then "He/she WILL sleep through the night". =)

I think of positive thinking/mantras/superstitions/etc as being in the "can't hurt, might help" catagory.

Deborah said...

I think the hardest part about all this IF stuff is staying positive. I think whatever works for you is what you should do, no matter how silly it seems. Who cares what other people think, just tell the naysayers to stuff it.