Friday, January 22, 2010

What a Difference a Day Makes

Thank-you for all of the comments, hugs and support! They really helped me through one of the roughest IF days I've had in quite a while. I am doing better today, no tears at all. H. was amazing yesterday, he called and checked on me to make sure I was okay because he had a class last night so he would be going straight there from work. Except he didn't because he surprised me and showed up at our sliding glass door last night just to give me a hug to cheer me up. And, he came bearing gifts. He bought me the most divine box of chocolates and truffles to help get me through the night. We shared a couple before he had to go to class. He's definitely a keeper!

I am still torn about moving on without my eggs. There is a part of me that thinks "what if", but I know that what I really want is to be a Mom and my best chance is through DE. It is the right road for me. I took my first BCP last night at 9pm and will do so every night until I'm told it's time for my Lupron shot.

I think I'm going to enjoy this little TTC break while I wait for donor eggs. I have a 30th birthday and a 40th birthday party to attend in the next few weeks and I won't have to worry about having a drink or two.

Anyway, thank-you thank-you thank-you for all of you love and support. It means the world to me.


Mad Hatter said...

A definite keeper! Truffles - yum!!
Glad you're feeling a little better today, and yay for starting the DE program! So hopeful for you as you embark on this new adventure!

Spacey said...

Awwww, so nice of H! Glad to hear that you are feeling better today and have a great time at the parties. :)

Kate said...

It's great that you and DH are still so supportive of each other, even after dealing with IF for so long. He sounds very sweet!
I'm glad the DE protocol is now underway. Often I find the anticipation of something brings more mixed or difficult emotions, but as soon as I embark on the journey, I become more positive. Hope the same holds true for this next step in your journey to motherhood.

Fran said...

I'm so happy you feel better my friend, we'll be here all the way! Fran

ps: I love the ticker!

pps: your H is sooo nice!

babyrecipe said...

what a great husband! every girl needs chocolate to make those tears go away. I'm about to start my bcp's too! Same thoughts on the bio baby - just posted on it in fact. freaky. now go eat a truffle for me! I'm out of chocolate!

Lost in Space said...

What a great hubby you have there!

I think it all comes in phases of grief and we have to let it flow as needed. It doesn't mean we aren't excited about other avenues to parenthood, but just letting go of old dreams.